smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile.. blahblahblah

you know i cant smile without you
cant smile without youu

sorenya baru saja berpikir tentang siapakah the real 'right person' itu, dan muncullah satu nama. dia yang sudah lama hilang dan tak ada kabarnya.

Ooh, umur pertemanan kami baru satu tahun. Satu tahun tidak ketemu lebih tepatnya. I really really WAS damn in love with him... He succesfully stole my heart.
Okeee, lebaaaaaay lebaaaaaay!

und, after i thought about it.. HE SENT ME A SMS!

hueeeh?? WHAT!? can you believe it?

and he please me to hear his voice on a radio, wahahaha he is a new comer actually, so he will on air in the middle of the night.

Good signs, after a year I didnt hear his voice, i can hear his voice AGAIN on a radio. hahaha. So, i stay up on my another room (I have two personal rooms, one with my sister and another I own it, hehe).
Dan yang namanya 'ingatan suara' itu benar-benar menakjubkan. Bodoh sih, gue udaaaah lama banget enggak ketemu dia dan gue lupa suara dia kaya apa.
First respon: "hue? beneran nih suara dia?"

Setelah itu, setelah mendengar sekian lama... Gue jadi senyam-senyum sendiri. Yeah, ini bener-bener dia. Dia yang pernah bikin gue merasa sangat amat kehilangan seakan-akan jiwa gue hilang saat mata gue membuka setelah hari pertama berpisah dengan dia, dan horor sekali membayangkan tubuh tanpa jiwa.
His soul, the part I miss a lot.. bisa gue dengarkan dari suaranya.

I cant sleep
I just only can smile smile smile and smileeeeeeeee :)
I miss him, and people who connect me with him
I just want to see him and talk with him in reality! I need to laugh and he is good to make me laugh, and everybody too!
He is a good healer, yeah people says kalo ketawa kan baik buat kesehatan..

Jadi inget, waktu mau ngadain buka puasa bareng sama mereka gue nanya sama temen gue
"Hey, dia dateng gak?"

"Enggak tam, dia ke Mesir"

"Yaaah, yaudah gue ga dateng! Haohaha"


Heeey you!
If you read this (walaupun gue tau kemungkinan itu kecil)
I miss you a lot
I know I cant reach you, you ARE unreachable.. and I hate to know the truth because we have different way to view life!
so that's it!
goodluck yaa! Awas lo kalo udah terkenal jangan sombong sama gue :)
I will always be your number one fans!